= Whew, temptation (pardon the Philly lingo below):
Sweetheart, you better come with me to a weekend of New Year's celebrations next time because the opportunites were out there. Maybe I was being faithful, maybe I was using us being together to lunch (i.e.:chicken out, mess up) on these gorgeous jawns (i.e.:women) who seemed extra approachable this time. I know we have an open situation that I set forward but it was about to be really open in a sec. Give me points for being a good boy and sock it to me sweet when you arrive back in town.
^^^ Never saw that vid & Kia Goodwin the lead female in blue is gorgeous. I haven't been in love before either...
Have some time to yourself,and figure out what or who's going to make U happy.
How do you know when someones cheating on you? Is it when they can't look you in the eye anymore? Don't kiss you or say they love you anymore? Maybe you know because of the sinking feeling you get in your stomach every time he turns away or ignores you when you try to talk to him? And even if they are cheating does it matter when the relationship is pretty much over? Should it hurt as much? Is there a point in even bringing it up?
This new relationship is wrought with baggage on my end (neither good nor bad)--y'know the real stuff everyone should process and I've resumed weekly therapy sessions to keep the introspection on course. There's an almost ten year age gap, which is different b/c I usually swung up or down three years at the most (and my slight preference before was towards younger but mature guys to grow w/). The lifestyle component is right up my alley... and the open and varied channels of communication and education are so very helpful. I'm too excited about this and wonder... even if it lasts his average of 18 months I'd be happier and would've grown so much--but I need to feel and think my way through if this is the start of something that could result in a very longterm attachment and possibly children. O_O I can't even think about kids right now. BUT a part of me really wants to have kids sooner than later (e.g. closer to 25 than 30).
At first I wondered if I was pushing or trying too hard... and then after the first night I was freaking the hell out w/ confusion and anger and became even more confused. But, now I've settled a bit more into the idea of roles and having the physicality back in my life after years of choosing to not be touched romantically. :]
Been catching quite a bit of shit from my very good friends who I know love me and are angry at what they think (for good reason) is a very dangerous and self-destructive situation.
How the hell?? date?? what date??
You have issues! ! look like a gremlin (a sexy gemlin)
I'm really slow on the uptake, how do i not realise i've been taken on a "date" untill the next day.
I told you I'm still heart broken and I don't date people I work with meaning you do not have a chance in hell mainly because of your dodgy personality and secondly your looks thirdly your age.... we can be mates though
It amazes me that you got it so completely wrong, i'm sorry.
Damn it works going to be all fucking weird now :'(
WTH is wrong with people these days. arggh!!