The thing with me is I feel like I haven't had a relationship with a real live grown assed man. Something committed and headding to something perminant. It's been more than a decade since I have been in a relationship. I spent the majority of my adult life in the gay community which didn't really help. I had boyfriends in my 20's but they were ill fitting and the main thing the relationship revolved around was the bedroom. Outside of that there was nothing in common. I got it in my head to start following my purpose as an artist, performer, designer and I will meet the men that I have things in common with in that realm. Art is incredibly important to me. I need a man who is about it to either involved in it or a real lover of it. When I can't share that part of my life with the man I am with it's a real problem. Just like I love to dance and spent most of my life in a dance studio. To be with a man who cant and wont dance is a hinderance. Because then you have that I'm going out dancing, and he stays home and wants to be all pissy when you get home conflict, which I am not going through. My boyfriends didn't know much about life, or anything for that matter, and the worst part was they werent even curious. Nothing inspired then, they had passion for nothing. I wont go back. Ill stay single before I will go back to mediocre and mundane.