My deceptive (not deceitful) appearance at all times. Being able to conceal my true emotions and fooling (but not in a mean way) most people because if I can't fool them they're a keeper.
The want and desire to be better- mind, soul and most importantly body.
The way I was raised and who I was raised by.
My silhouette. My figure. I love being all up my ass, that way other people can be too!
Charisma, I have it. Confidence, spades. When I'm not being overly shy, insecure and that other thing I can attract a mate.
I've been told I have a healing touch, I'm over the moon about being able to comfort strangers.
Harsh introspection. No matter how hard I criticize someone else or how demanding (I like that too, I'm a demanding Dragon) I am, I am always exponentially more demanding, hard and criticizing on myself. (Damn, syntax) It's lead to some pretty hard and puzzling lows but also some really great highs.
Bullshit radar, intuition and people observation. Emotion masking and thousand yard stare doesn't hurt, either.
I've been told the disconnect between my appearance and my true self is really disturbing. I like that. I like fooling people- not in a mean way, in a Pan way. Wolves in sheep's clothing aren't all bad.
my kidneys work fairly well and my doctors didn't think they would for this long. i survived 84 days of chemo and still had a 3.4 GPA and an A+ in pre-calculus. i am super resilient. my legs are strong and even though they are covered in stretch marks from all my swelling and edema they still look really hot and when i wear a short skirt all the guys stare. i never used to wear skirts before.
Permalink Reply by Jay on April 25, 2009 at 11:18am
i love my appearance, and how i never meet anyone who looks remotely like me. except for liberty from degrassi. i love my squinty dark eyes i got from my dad, my pillow lips i got from my mom, and my eyebrows. i'm completely obsessed with my springy, curly black hair. i'm growing to love my hyper feminine body, even though i get jealous of lanky girls with no boobs.
i love my creepy sense of humor, my ability to care for dogs and children without being told how to, and i love how i'm a snarky little maneater.
...i admire that i am pushing forward in my life and not living by anybody's rules...i still have my blue moments, but i now acknowledge it instead of playing the 'stoic, mule of the earth' role...that in itself helps me to enjoy life more...