My Diagnosis

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Permalink Reply by Calvin Chaos on April 13, 2010 at 1:34pm

this is a link to my youtube channel where I put my sparse "Vlog" on just me dealing with the panic disorder and bipolar. I figure it helps for more people with bipolar to talk so people without it understand it's not just a lack of self control, or an attitude problem, and of course more awareness for the panic disorder is good too. also I try and put a few tips in when I can like consult legal aid or a disability advocate...dropping the names of some natural treatments, etc. this is the URL:

http://www.youtube.com/user/PugBuddyDuck?feature=mhw5

if you start at the first video you can see some improvement. I didn't think to start doing these until I was back under treatment, so I don't have video of me in the throwing up blood or Klonopin withdrawal stages, or the 4 times a week panic attacks, when people wanted to call an ambulance. I wish I would have taped some back then too. anyway I ramble too much. good luck with your own problems.

Permalink Reply by Caz Prescott on April 16, 2010 at 7:26am

I was diagnosed w/bipolar disorder w/psychotic features. I guess that's bipolar 1.

I'm in psychotherapy & I'm on risperidone & paxil cr. I might need a mood stabilizer. I gained 82 lbs on meds. I realized that I can't do without them, but I'm wary of taking a mood stabilizer. I might try one anyway.

I recently started working out, Hopefully my weight will stay the same.

My sex drive is shot to hell again. Don't know what to do about that. I guess I'd rather be "stable" than off the deep end, so maybe it's better that I'm on meds.

Later,
Caz The Spaz

Permalink Reply by Calvin Chaos on April 16, 2010 at 10:26am

yeah, I hate being dependant on their little system, that usually is just all about selling drugs anyway (half of which do permanent damage somewhere in your internal organs)...but I went from Angelo Moore nerves of steel to that one guy off of Arrested Development in the last 4 years...so I'm just taking it 1 step at a time & trying everything thier way for now. This year, I'm doing better than I have been since 2006.

Now they tell me in July the funding might get pulled by the Feds and no clinics will be able to take me if it does...so I'm glad I have learned a lot of REAL (non-voodoo) techniques in CBC this time, that I can use after I'm off meds.

Permalink Reply by Madamoiselle De Sade on April 20, 2010 at 7:38pm

I haven't been diagnosed with anything. I keep asking and they keep telling me to stop reading the psych books.

Permalink Reply by Caz Prescott on May 4, 2010 at 2:41pm

Maybe you should try therapy. I went to therapy 'cos I knew there was something wrong with me beside depression & anxiety. After a few months I was diagnosed as bipolar. You should read more books & keep a (medical) journal. Sometimes it takes awhile before you're diagnosed w/anything.

Mlle d. Sade said:

I haven't been diagnosed with anything. I keep asking and they keep telling me to stop reading the psych books.

Permalink Reply by Madamoiselle De Sade on May 4, 2010 at 6:01pm

Thanks. I keep a journal just so I can get a hold of what's going on in my head because I know it's abnormal.
I can't afford it. That's why I'm getting free services from a case worker the therapists are limited and for the people who really, really, really need them. I'll hang in there.

Caz Prescott said:

Maybe you should try therapy. I went to therapy 'cos I knew there was something wrong with me beside depression & anxiety. After a few months I was diagnosed as bipolar. You should read more books & keep a (medical) journal. Sometimes it takes awhile before you're diagnosed w/anything.

Mlle d. Sade said:

I haven't been diagnosed with anything. I keep asking and they keep telling me to stop reading the psych books.

Permalink Reply by angie1340 on October 21, 2010 at 10:51am

Hi, just passing by, I discover this new topic.
Well, i've been diagnostic as schizoid , but in fact I've got nothing else but a very hight IQ, well I prefer call myself a zebra.
In fact when you are in the therapy stuff they always find something to sell pills or go on for ever$$$.
This is first an industry.
Most of untest adults who suffer of intellectual surefficiency if they didn't show off in childhood, develop stuff that are very similar to certain psy disorders. I'm sure that into all the people here who have a psy dignostic; 1/3 is a Zebra and not really sick! why not try the wais test? or any qualitative analyze? This stuff really save my life.
We are like super heros in Marvell's who do not know they have extra power and do everything wrong, broking things, living with a wrong image of ourselves, looking for adversity or alterity (otherness), can't find internal peace or stop the thinking machine. I think that there are much more people with HP who ignore themselves and feel sick than we can expect. This hight efficientie is quite dangerous for any power or lobbies so they wont help you to know about it. It's a hard way, but if you feel different, to sensitive, altruist, in the moon, if you are able to watch yourself from outter space and from the eyes of a ant, then you will certainly diagnostic as bi polar or reverse schizo... Therapists never think about surrefficiencie if you are not a human calculator, but most of us drop school before college and never succeed in university, most of us have creepy jobs or no job at all...the image of geek working in astrophysics is a lie.In fact on people with IQ up to 130: 1/3 is a tramp, 1/3 in perpetual therapy or try suicide (develops real sickness) 1/3 is adapted but suffer of social isolation. Then this is the only trouble you can't speak about at all, others find you arrogant, some times I think my friends will better accept me with a cancer or HIV... number of people who pretend to be friends drop you when you tell them about your problems having too much brain activity...And because of our humility we can't admit the cause. Much of us hate to be treated as arrogant because we have no ego, it's why we never admit the problem comes from big IQ and spend our time on therapy.First big IQ is not a gift, it's a different way of thinking, it can be a great pain...

Permalink Reply by Spookycreep on December 15, 2011 at 3:00am

    I am an old vetern of the psychoanalticial scene and in my experience it was a waste of my time. I thank Goddess I was never put on any pills but I saw an analyist for  almost a year, going once a week and twice every other week. I use to be an extreme agoraphobic.I tried for years to deal with this problem on my own but eventually I ran out of ideas on what to do next. Seeking professional help was always my plan B and so, I entered therapy.

    I don't think it helped me at all, all we ever did was talk. I remember one session I was so frustrated with it all that I didn't say a single word the whole hour. Felt good too.

    Life is strange. I had a couple of mysticial experiences_ cosmic conscousness and an out of the body experience_ that got me to thinking maybe I could find the answers I sought in a study of mysticism and the occult. When I told my analyist of my decision she told me point blank: "you need help." When she said that it scared the living hell out of me but I didn't change my mind. This was one of the bravest moments of my life and I'm happy to say my plan worked, I am no longer agoraphobic.

    My advice to anyone going through the hell of a mental illness is to hang in there, you never know what tomorrow will bring. I remember a dream I had back in my nightmare years of little kids jumping off a roof committing sucide. There was a radio on the roof with them and a voice coming from it asked a very interesting question: why run away from the rest of your life? I second that. Things can change. If you want to live you really have no other alternative but to keep hope alive and believe you me, I know how hard that can be. The worst of it for me were the times when I felt doomed to spend the rest of my life as an agoraphobic. Talk about despair. I've been free of my illness for a while now but it still seems like a miracle to me.

   If anyone feels the need to talk to someone that's been there, by all means do so. I am on your side. You are my people.