Yo Mr. Allah,...my twin brother is deep down with 'eso_teric' too - a term who means for me 'from the body comin'...Thanx for being friends. I love to know that somethin to challenge together, as my twin like 'Ramtha',..the metaphysics for the fuckin German 'BND//ORG narrations has only Heidegger and the law suits of Carl Schmitt. I hope for you, that verything will be ongoin, as I believe in allies.
this internode in cyberspace is just one crux for interactive communication,
but the whole net is burning at literal lightspeed with ideas. at least you know it...that one word, that other name for Earth that the Melchizedeks use...you're beyond on a certain level. yeah, nice page.
I downloaded a free copy of the Urantia Book. Started reading with the chapters on Lucifer's revolt. Interesting reading. How did you get into this school of thought? It's interesting but too many moving parts for me. Truth is not that complicated or confusing.
Even so, it's an interesting book and I will be reading more of it just to see what's there.
I am currently reading some books on Chaos Magic. Are you familar with this?
So then it's up to me as to what's real or not? That's an interesting idea.
I am slowly but surely learning that Queen Lucifer is real. This is perhaps the whole point of my mysticism_ to get to a place where there is no more room for doubt. I think I'm very close to this point. Real is something you can count on no matter the circumstance.
Iv'e often thought that the question isn't are the Gods real but how real do we think we are? I don't think we're real at all. We are a dream creation, a trick of the Divine Mind which is our true self as opposed to the self we each think we are.
But talk is cheap. Realization is everything and realization is what I am trying to do along a path tailor made for me.
You may be further along the path than me. If so, leave bread crumbs, and a little wine too,one get's thirsty on this road. Actually I don't drink. Make it a joint, (I'll drink water).
You are right, it's easy to be decieved. This is why you have to remain honest with yourself and keep a tight watch on your attiude. Satan is fire and if you don't respect it you will get burned. Also, when you're hanging with the badest of the bad lesser spirits don't fuck with you. I am always aware of the dangers of such an exploration so I neveer dwell on the negative. One reaps only as one has sowed. I have nothing to fear from Lucifer. I have learned to trust Her. Sure, I could be wrong, but we're human, that is a possibllity that we always have to contend with but in doing so it makes you decide carefully and check and double check yourself. Doubt can be the stepping stone to greater faith but only if you're honest enough to admit you have doubts. What's the point in worshipping a God that doesn't resolve your doubts? So rest assured, I know this darkness I travel in. It has been my friend for a very long time.
You have a publishing and record company? Have you published any of your own metaphysical thoughts? I bet they'd make interesting reading.
I hope to write a book on Satanism myself some day. I've actually been working on it for many years now. It's a difficult book to write because it's about a subject that is beyond words as well as my conscious understanding. I think though that as I continue to live, learn and breathe, the book willl write it's self and it will say all the things I hope it will say. I also suspect that finishing the book and getting it right will lead to higher levels of consciousness.
Tall orders perhaps but not for a book guided by the hand of Divine Being.
Or maybe i'm just nuts. There's always that possiblity too, but sober judgement doubts it.
I've had too many synchronistic experiences in my 30- something years as a mystic to doubt that I am on to something_ a reality beyond myself that is responsive to my concerns.
One such experience happened the day after I had been kicked out of a men's mission for the homeless because I raised hell about them forcing a person to attend church.( I told them Jesus didn't force anyone to listen to him so who do they think they are?)
The next day, around about noon in a public park crowded with people I had an altered state of consciousness. I felt the prescense of Satanic Being ( which, understand is the same as Divine Being to me) to the point that it's reality was more real than the park and all the people walking around in it. I am usually reserved in public, i'm not one to call attention to myself, but In that state of consciousness I lost my fucking mind and didn't care if people saw or not. It's a long story but a true one.[ I'm exceeding the word count.]
The point: the whole time, I kept saying one thing to self periodically:" this shit is real!"
Writing such books isn't about making money, It;s about spreading knowledge and keeping it alive. Think of all the ancient and old religions that no longer exsit but, we know they once did. How do we know this? We have their books or bits and pieces of them.
However, you picked the right man to write your story. If the book did make lots of money I'd find a way to give you most of it_ if I have to get in a car and run you over and then say, "Here's a couple of million for the doctor bills." ( And I'll make sure you're in no condition to refuse)
Whats up Dondray? I've been busy downloading free books. Yogananda's autobiography among them and I have read the book before a long time ago. I'ts a great book and he is a great man. Thanks for reminding me of him.
I also downloaded a book by Krishnamurti and a couple by Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh. I'v'e read quite a few of Rajneesh's books many years ago, he is a favorite of mine.
Now I know that you're serious, you've studied this subject and made it your own. You need to write a book, maybe even several of them.
I wrote down the name of the person you mentioned, Yogananda. Sounds familiar. I assume he's an Eastern mystic, a Hindu. I love and have much respect for Hinduism, Iv'e learned alot from it and continue to do so. I will check this mystic out.
I hope I haven't offended you in any way. You are interesting to talk to and the more I do so, the more I am able to understand_ at least, more of what you're saying.
As i said, God loves Halloween. Looking at the different mask She/It/He wears is part of the fun ( as long as you keep in mind that's there's really only one face behind them all).
Tell me more if you please.
Okay, so you can walk on water. It's Satan's job to stir things up. Brings out the best in folks if it's there to be brought out. You have something. God wears many masks. In the woods I live in Halloween is Her favorite holiday but I think you and I are on similiar pages. We ought to start a new group; the AP Mystics. Do you think there is anyone else out there as crazy as us?