April 2008 Blog Posts (5)

CIG FREE DAY 2

so i started my period.

and im a raging bitchwhoremonsterkillercunt.

and all i want to do.

is tell the world to eat a dick

screw your agenda

take off this stupid monkey suit

put my feet on my desk

and spark a joe camel wide.

suck it down like a slurpee

oh a hot day in july.

i want to eat my turkey sandwich thats been in the fridge for 2 days.

i want to eat doritos.

i want to say fuck my second job and go home

and cuddle with… Continue

Added by ladypaige on April 22, 2008 at 11:30am — No Comments

OLD HABITS DIED YOUNG

sometimes i just dont understand.

i feel like i want to scream out your eardrums.

and you just laugh.

theres nothing funny.

this isnt a joke at all.

you dont understand.

you are my downfall.

im trying.

im learning.

but i dont think this is the way.

i have to live my life myself.

and not for other people.

family lover friend or foe.

i have to do me.

thats all i know.

i tend to be… Continue

Added by ladypaige on April 20, 2008 at 11:30am — No Comments

reject for pleasure

im pretty sure.

fairly certain.

slowly i have begun to go vague.

gray.

over these past few days.

after the weeks had past.

the thought drifted.

vices turned to victories.

after the nights.

of instant repetition.

verbatim.

versatile.

after those days.

those nights.

i still feel.

jaded.

changed.

unaware.

and at times i can escape this hate.

yet still it brews.

simmers.

stews.

right… Continue

Added by ladypaige on April 19, 2008 at 11:30am — No Comments

black being

the majority

have no idea

what it means to be black

to be black and a woman.

to be black from a background shaded with sin.

the lines colored outwards and within.

the child of a junkie

with the heart of a saint.

born to a world

of graduate and negate.

to learn from the tv to love and to hate

to resent whats on the outside

then learn to appreciate.

you.

have no idea.

to be in between the cracks

a house

loved but… Continue

Added by ladypaige on April 17, 2008 at 11:30am — No Comments

ive got somethings to say

ive got some thing to tell you

ive got some words to say

and it seems like i havent been able to express them

atleast until today.

to a variety of people.

persons.

all the same.

those who possibly have known me in other lives.

called me by different names.

i dont think i spoken clearly

or maybe you didnt hear.

ive been growing up and changing

the things you say

go ear to ear.

i dont mean to be rude.

or seem like i dont… Continue

Added by ladypaige on April 2, 2008 at 11:30am — No Comments