its 23 degrees outside, and I have not a coat.

So what do you do, when you feel as if the world just hates your existance? Whats one to do when you feel as if theres nothing to be happy about? I just ask, cause, like most of you, I go through spells of loneliness, and right now, im in one, and I dont know for how long. Im going to start with the beginning by ending, and ending by beginning. So, I know that the one way to get over this spell of feeling "outside in the cold (no pun intended)," is just to realize that its all not true. I cant allow someones choices for the night, determine who I am. I have to make myself feel as if Im vital to there lives, and accept the fact that everyone is not me. Some people don't have the same beliefs as I, nor the same hate, or like... So, why feel this way? What is it about certain events, that makes me feel outside of the loop? I guess its a social thing... As the saying goes "When in Rome...," But I dont fallow that. I dont believe that you have to do everything that the romans do to be accepted. If people cant accept you for your yes' or nos', then do they really accpet you? Do they really love you? Cause when someone is selfish in thought about what they want, and not caring about what others around them, may or may not want, isnt that being selfish? But at the same time, one has got to ask themselves, is it selfish for me to not want to fall to "peer-pressure" or "temptation?" Cause society says otherwise... in more than just what you do at home or with friends... So, its like we are living in that saying. And as far as I know, society isnt going to change anytime soon either, cause you have to do everything that they do, to be accepted. But I refuse to smoke. I refuse to blackout. I refuse to have sex before marriage. And my decisions are punishing me for me wanting to be better than the flow of the river of shit, that is "SOCIETY." It angers me, that after so many years of trial and error, we still are stuck in the same trends. And if you do, decide to rise above the tide, then you are looked at as either a "quitter," or "not cool." Well, dammit, if thats the badge I'm to wear, then FUCK IT! I'll sew that shit on myself. I dont get the trend of getting high, or getting off... Never did, never will... This is what bothers me about the kids today. See, told ya... the end first, and the beginning last. :) Have a good one yall...