new me

i've noticed that since i've lost weight and now i'm the ideal size 2 and sometimes 5, but healthy. guys dont seem interested in getting to know you as a person. they automatically think that if u look pretty that you will be a booty call. wtf?? is it so fucking far fetched that there are some women out there who want something more serious? who respect their bodies. who dont treat it like something that you pass around?? please tell me that there is hope out there. cuz i'm loosing faith in the guys who approach me. it seems like the ones i want to approach me are too scared to. so the dicks have the confidence, but they didnt expect to get a lady. then act all surprised when i dont want to give it up. dumbasses. dont just assume. u should pay attention. because i give the clues immediately when i think that they are getting the wrong idea. like the last guy i went outwith. he thought i was like that. seriously. i never threw myself at him in any way. we went on a date to a hockey game. the entire night i'm getting hit on by other guys, and guys telling him how lucky he was to have me and that he should marry me immediately. dumb fuck. i really wanted to give him a chance because he looked just like the hockey player i got to meet in person at the last game. i even made out with him to boot. he was sooo fuckin hot (hockey player exception) . but then he got traded to another team. fuckers. but i woulda sooo wanted to see him again. so the guy i went on a date with was just gonna be a substitute for the one that got traded. lol. they both had blonde hair and similar personalities which i thought, substitute. sweet. sounds cool, but really. its just true. then i confronted him about it. and told him that all he wanted from me was a booty call. he was in denial, and tried to say that we had different views. and i'm like uh huh. ur dumb. i dont see y the guy cant even just pretend to open his mind, just even a little bit. i'm not a fuckin prostitute. and i'm not easy, nor a cheap date. so u better be ready to impress me. cuz i analyze everything. if he's hesitant to do anything, and wants something after, i'll set him straight. cuz if i'm paying, its not a date, we're going out as friends. plain and simple. old fashioned bitch. get my door, pay the bill, treat me like a princess. cuz if u dont see that i am one, then u'll fuckin treat me like shit. and i'd rather be single than take some bullshit treatment. i'm for real. its no joke. i dont care. i dont need a man. and i dont consider myself desperate enough to just take anything that flashes itself in front of me. u better be for real, and u better impress. cuz i look inside and out. no masks. cuz i see through that shit and i will call u on it. i have no problem doing that. i know i deserve the best, and refuse to settle for less. a pussy gets worn out and diseased for quick thrills. that dont remember your name, or give a shit about u. i want someone not only to give a shit, but give 2 shits. lol. 4 me to be his #1. and u better believe it.