posting camo style

ok so i'm posting this here because i'm pretty sure he wont see it. umm. so i'm really confused. my neighbor told me my guy friend likes me. but i think she's just says that about all my guy friends. she said nolan liked me and that were not doing chemistry hw. i'm like haha. i'm taking chem over the summer remember? he's my lab partner. and then she's like oh. ok, well i dunno kinda thing. i'm like whatev. i dont like him like that. he's a sweet guy but he's on a diff level i wouldn't feel good to adjust to. i know str8 up i'd hurt him, confuse the fuck outta him with misunderstandings. he should date marta. i told her he likes her but he doesn't know how to say it. she's like how do u know... i'm like i know. i can see it...but apparently only with other ppl. now on to my confuzn.

so when i had an old friend from like literally the first day i got to bakersfield almost 2 yrs ago, came to chill, she was all quizzin me. and i'm like nah dude. he's just bored, its summer. but its chill tho. and it totally was chill. i was actually taken aback a bit. but it was so comfy i just rode with it....so now, after kissing* last night, i'm really confused as to whats going on. i'd like to think it was the alcohol but...i'm pretty sure it wasn't) but it really could be. maybe beer goggles. ugh i'm so silly. nm. fuck this post. out.. feels dangerous by the flame. i dont wanna get burned