... the other Black experience

It's pretty rare for somebody age 32 to win a mental health case for SSI when it's bipolar and panic disorder, but amazingly I won this one. They grilled me for about an hour and a half, and the shrink the court brough in was in a wheelchair himself, so on top of already not expecting to win, I had threw hope out the window. But about halfway through, not only did I have my second panic attack of the day, but that was the same time the judge let my girlfriend and the shrink give thier testimonies, and all of a sudden the case turned around. It was kinda going downhill up until that point.

So that was more than a month ago...I just went to the Social Security office today to finish the paperwork (had to wait for them to "get ready for me" whatever that means), and benefits start in September. I was just glad to get any breaks...usually this case is just a year to year personal hell for me, and half of people don't even believe I have a problem unless they hang around me a lot, so I got the shit-talking stigma on top of that. Anyway enough whining, but this shit sure makes me want to punch holes in walls on a regular basis. (Left 3 in my last apartment) I'll take whatever I can get. *sighs*

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Comment by Calvin Chaos on August 13, 2010 at 8:06am
Thanks, I appreciate all your support all this time :)
You're right, I didn't even expect Mindy to stick with me, since I usually don't give people that much credit. I mean she's nice, but I underestimated her devotion...I'm used to having a million "friends" know what I mean. But she's a keeper. Oh man you were talking about me to Jahluv? I hope it wasn't too depressing or bad lol. There's pretty much only bad stories out about me here in Chicago, people usually forget the good & or sane stuff I have sone, because the bad stuff is more entertaining.

I'm glad that at least that part of my fight is over with. That case was going on for something like 6 years. They "lose" the paperwork, then you gotta re-file, then they "lose" it again until you go down there cussing, then years later I got out of treatment and had to re-file again, so I'm just glad it's over with. It's still sinking in until I get a check that I even won the case, lol...thanks for checking in on me :)
Comment by CaliforniaAfrican on August 10, 2010 at 8:31pm
Comment by CaliforniaAfrican on August 10, 2010 at 8:31pm
Congratulations! Yeah for you! I think seeing your YT spots helped me better understand what you go through. SS is a bitch, too. So many people have to keep fighting and fighting to get ANYthing. I'm very proud of you, Calvin. You've been through so much. I'm proud of Mindy (I hope I got that right), too. Love is such a powerful, beautiful thing. Blessings. You fuckin punk. lol I was just talking about you today with Jahluv. Stay up!


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